I was exhausted, literally worn out after teaching in the synagogue all day long. In fact, I do enjoy teaching and engaging with people, but I do also need to be in quiet and peace. So when I pursued to find some rest at Peter’s house, my disciples brought his mother-in-law to me because she was sick with a fever. I grasped her hand and raised her up to restore her wholeness and the fever left her and she waited on us.
It was too short to relax before the crowds brought all who were ill in the whole town at the door. I knew they anxiously waited for sunset not to break the law on the Sabbath. How could I avoid or reject my sheep lost and hurt? I had to strengthen my weak knee and sharpen my mind before I diagnosed individual sickness and cured them. It was not an easy task to cure so many needy people, controlling the unclean spirits not to speak of me because ironically they knew me first. The time went so fast; I would spend the whole night if my disciples didn’t ask people to come back tomorrow. In the middle of the night, I found myself so tired and drained that couldn’t go to asleep. So I rose very early before dawn, left and went off to a deserted place to pray. Not long after, the disciples hunted for me and on finding me, said, “Everyone is looking for you.”
Everyone is looking for me…Here I want to say something to discuss with you.
Have you found why you are here? In other words, what is your life purpose? If you pursue to be wealthy, famous, reputable and successful, that would be fine. Certainly in your personal definition of success all your activities and behaviors stem from and return to that core word and value: success. Many say I had no desire to be successful. They are wrong. I wanted more than anything to be successful. It was what drove me. I had such a yearning for it that I was willing to give up everything to get it. It was my food, my delight, my pleasure and my reason for being. I sought it as my compass, my light, my ladder, my altar and my final prayer. And frankly I defined my success before I began.