Scripture is full of stories of sinners-tax collectors, prostitutes, murderers, and traitors. The church is the assembly of sinners who come to acknowledge their sins and their need of God who is the merciful Father and Mother.
During the Labor Day weekend, I read a book called “Tattoos on the Heart” written by a Jesuit Fr. Gregory Boyle, known as affectionately G-Dog. The book is about his work with gang members in Los Angeles, the gang capital of the world. He started Homeboy Industries more than twenty years ago, it has served members of more than half of the gangs in LA—about 600 gangs. In Homeboy Industries’ various businesses—baking, silkscreening, landscaping—gang affiliations are left outside as they learn side by side mutual respect and find what God wants them to be.
The gangs are public sinners. They are accustomed to violence and drugs. They scare us. Fr. G-Dog talks a story. A gang member, fresh out of prison, with a long record, told him his job search was not going so great. G-Dog immediately knew why because the guy had FUCK THE WORLD tattooed on his forehead, completely filling the space there. G-Dog is only imagining him at McDonald’s: “Do you want fries with that?” and seeing mothers grabs their kids, fleeing the store. So G-Dog began tattoo removal because of him.
The stories Fr. G-Dog tells are funny, moving and heartbreaking. Since 1988, he has buried 168 young persons because of gang violence. Some are related to the drug; some just crossed the barrio of enemy; some happened to be shot. The gangs are also sons of mothers; they have one life like us; they are scared of being shot as well.
In the gospel, tax collectors and sinners are drawing near Jesus. I wondered why Jesus attracts sinners, and then I found the answer in the Tattoos on the Heart.
Pedro was a crack cocaine abuser and G-Dog kept asking him to go to a rehab center. Finally he agreed and he began the long, hard and slow work of returning to himself. Thirty days into his stay there, his younger brother, Jonathan, out of drug, put a gun to his head and an end to his pain. G-Dog called Pedro, and he was, of course, devastated. But, since he was thirty days sober, he allowed the pain passage to his core and did not permit the hurt to waste time.
When Fr. G-Dog went to pick Pedro up from the rehab, Pedro talked about his dream. In the dream, Pedro and G-Dog are in the large, empty room. There is no light. Pedro seems to know that G-Dog is there with him. Suddenly, in this dark silence, G-Dog retrieves a flashlight from his pocket and pushes it on. He finds the light switch in the room, on the wall, and he shines this narrow beam of light on the switch. Pedro knows he is the only one who can turn this light switch on, following the beam. He arrives at the switch, takes a deep breath, and flips it on. The room is flooded with light.
Pedro is now sobbing at this point, in the telling of the dream. And with a voice of astonishing discovery, he says, “And the light … is better … than the darkness.” Then he continues, “I guess … my brother … just never found the light switch.”
We all find ourselves in this dark, windowless room, fumbling for grace and flashlights. None of us can save anybody but Jesus who came into the world to save sinners with astonishing light. Sinners are those who know that light is better than darkness and keep searching a light switch. Their darkness is so obvious because of their sins that they are eager to finding someone who shines a beam of light or shows a light switch. That’s why sinners flock to Jesus, the Light of the dark world.
However, many of us close our eyes not to see darkness around us, within us, thinking, “I am fine.” In their worlds, they are able to point out the splinter in their brother’s eye, not seeing the wooden beam in their eye. They say, “Only if you change, everything would be better.” However, what we are only called to do is not to judge or force others to follow our way but to endure weaknesses of our brothers and sisters and love them as they are. William Black says, “We are put on earth for a little space that we might learn to bear the beams of love.”
Everyone is somebody in whom God has invested an infinite love. Each of us is the result of a thought of God. Each of us is willed, each of us is loved, each of us is necessary. Jesus’ action to be with sinners speaks louder than words, “You are somebody.” He is not only a man for sinners but also a man with sinners. That’s why we seek his unwavering presence among us, for us, with us, especially in breaking of the bread.
“Lord Jesus, have mercy on us, sinners.”
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